Ailment

I am speechless
out of exhaustion.

Squeezed every morsel of energy in my cell
distilled into this journey
mixed in question marks and shadows.

sometimes I fear it’s not what I imagined
when I bring it out of the oven
glazed at thousands of degrees of heat

but now is the only change
now is the only hope,
now is the testimony of past.

now, I just hope it comes out intact.
now, I just hope for its best.
now, I just hope for its safety.

10.10.2021