Ralph with Coffee

I learned to wait under the heat

Of my own desire fuming with fire

Towards what will quench my yearning

For an everlasting happily-ever-after.

As the heat grew —

I remembered the last reward at the end of such wait.

And it was worthwhile the suffering,

even as if it required the suffering itself

To make itself ever more salubrious.

So I wait

Under the heat.

5.26.2026

I wanted to ask you

What you would do if you knew

Your life will end one day.

There’s no more “need” or “should”

There just is.

I want to meet and dance with someone

Who is has a passionate heart,

A daring soul, a partner-in-crime.

If I could dance this life with her,

I’d be content.

I want to stand on my two feet

And know I have done what is right.

I want to pay attention to the quiet moments

When the wind blows by in the quiet mid afternoon under the shadows of lush leaves

There is more to what appears on the surface.

I want to play with my creation

And know that it was fun for everyone.

I want the song to last

and fill the cup not to full, nor too dry

So that when we are all together

We would cherish all we’ve had.

5.20.2026

That moment

When the wind was blowing

And we didn’t see what was in front of us

Except for our hands

Holding onto each other

We couldn’t know what was real

And what was not.

But we just walked forward

Believing that we will get there.

I know where I want to go now.

It’s the moment we walked together.

It’s the one when we were carefree

Because we had covered our bases.

I know there can always be a disappointment

But I am going forward anyways

Because I really believe in us

And the days to come.

I know it’s silly

But I now believe in myself.

It may be slow

But come join me

Let’s walk this walk together.

5.16.2026

I just bursted out loud laughing in the gym. 
Maybe it’s because my grip just slipped
trying a heavier weight on lat pull down
on my last set of twelve reps,
maybe it’s because I just survived
a set of barbell squat with all my might
on a weight less than half of that in my peak time. 
or maybe it’s the voice of Beyoncé 
ringing like the crystal halo in my AirPods. 

Whatever it is, 
all at once, it all came crashing down. 
The joy, oh how so glorious and light it is!
Everything, the air, the weight, the people, fell into its places, like puzzle pieces coming together. 

I wish to share this light with you. 
Because I know what it felt like to be there. 
I hope this will come across to you. 


5.11.2026