Airport – (10 min)

Prompt: an airport is a place of physical transportation but also memories

Tall palm trees were the first thing that could be seen through a wide rectangular window in the international airport in Hawaii. Seeing the palm tree makes you realize you are on a tropical island. Suddenly, you feel as though you can smell the sweetness of the dates in the palm trees, the saltiness of the ocean beach, and the gentle breeze sweeping over a green pasture.

The sensation was triggered by a memory of 15 years ago when the man left the island as a teenage boy. As if time had not passed, the man in his late 20s felt he had traveled back to his childhood. With it, a sense of loneliness leaked in.

Holding it back, the man gripped his two large travel carriages, dragging them along with him to a bus station. The bus refused to carry his large luggage. Flabbergasted, he called an Uber. A younger Filipino Uber driver explained to him rather depressingly that Hawaii had recently been plagued with homelessness and drug additions. He was attending a college, studying criminology. The man asked him what he wanted to become. The driver replied it was hard to get a job on this island.

Getting off the Uber, he arrived in front of a university building where he was about to stay for the next two days. It looked much smaller than he had remembered. The humidity, the breeze, and the blazing sun reminded him that this was where he had spent his childhood.

Yet, the people he had lived it with were not there anymore. His friends, his mother, and his brother were not there. He was alone, a stranger to a place he once called home, a place he had dreamed of returning to. To the locals there, he was just another tourist from the mainland with a head filled with inflated utopian fantasy. They were used to people like this. They treated these people like chewed gums; they had tried them before and had seen what came out of them.

The man checked into the building and nervously walked through the hallways. It was much more cramped than he remembered. Everything was much older and worn than he had remembered. Not even basic amenities were there; no soap, toilet paper, or drinking water.

The man left the building, leaving his luggage behind, searching for water and soap. The street he had walked was still there. He wondered if the concrete were the same as he had walked on as a child. Fifteen years have passed. He doubted they remained the same.

Loneliness crept in further and further. The more he found childhood remnants, the more he remembered the warmth that he had felt then, and the more distinctly, he realized how alone he was now. He wanted to talk to the ghosts of his memories, but there was no response. No one spoke to him. It was only him and the road.

He continued to walk. He arrived at a beach. The sun was setting in a pink-purple hue. Occasional waves were gently crashing onto the shore. The man sat on the sand dune and stared at the sky. Tiny airplanes were making their way in and out of the island.

It’s those tiny airplanes that transported him magically to this place dwelling in his memory. Fifteen years have passed. Sweet things had happened, bitter things had happened, and nonetheless, the memory had remained the same.

Leaving the airport, he felt a closure. Witnessing what he remembered was still there gave him the courage to get out there again. Perhaps he could return to this place after another 15 years. He wondered what it would feel like then. Would it be happiness and gratitude instead of loneliness and bitterness he felt this time? He turned away from the window and walked through the gates.

Community

it’s like building a castle
but it could be a house of cards
if you are not careful
to focus all your attention
meeting each person as who they are
instead of what you think they should be

greeting them with a calm smile
letting them go with a serene gratitude
slowly, a page of life is written, as the sun sets
it takes all of your energy,
all of your attention.
but when you feel its presence
you may wonder of profoundness:
a work called life.

1.3.2023

“Runner” – (10 min)

prompt: finding a deeper meaning to running than simply running

*there was nothing but the road at the plan until the edge of the horizon. A man in his 20s is running on that road. A few runners in jerseys, shorts, and a running band around their sweat-soaked hair were ahead of him. The rest had already gone far ahead.

“All that the man possessed were his camera and a water bottle. The thing that he thought would be the must-have in this epic journey turned out to be the ones that were weighing him down. He felt tempted to throw them away by the dead tree next to the running path, but he decided against it. He was willing to carry the burden in the present for a better-rewarded future.

None of the runners spoke to him. They were also in a miserable state. A few decided to walk instead. The man could not bring himself to walk. Even though no one was looking at him, he wanted to finish this race, running.

Under the blazing sun, he could feel the moisture rapidly drying up from his soft body. He felt threads of muscles under his chin strained. His throat was burning, and his lungs were drying quickly. He felt soreness in his thighs and his shoulders. His feet and calves had gone numb a while ago, and he had been mechanically moving them one after another. The road seemed to not end, regardless of how far he ran.

He emptied the last sliver of water into his mouth. He started to see a village with a bit of pasture around it. He let his head fall after drinking the last bit of the water. Just staring at his feet, he focused on moving them one after another. What was the purpose of this? It would be far too easier to walk. If comfort is what the body craves, what does it mean to go against it and keep running? Is there something more than just living?

Then he heard a shout: Yala, Yala! A middle-aged man with a hearty lump of belly watering his garden was shouting at him. Although he did not understand what he was shouting, he knew what the man was saying: “don’t give up! Keep your head up and keep running!”

Something in him surged over to his legs and his arms. Recklessly, yet courageously, the man started to run. He ran as hard as he could. The world began to brighten. Everything seemed to be turning white.

Then there was an arch of the gate. As he walked through it, he entered an empty farmhouse garden where a few other men were panting and drinking water. He had made it. It was the finish line. He let his body fall to the ground and rested there, panting. It was worth a while. It was a worthwhile run. And he was grateful for having made it all the way, running.”

Confidence

after weathering a few setbacks,
another one does not feel much of anything.
staring at it squarely,
I acknowledged its weight
without flinching or turning away.
deep down through layers of scars,
there is a confidence:
as long as there is another day of the sun
a fistful of air to breath
and the spirit in me,
there is a chance.
chance to make it all worthwhile.

1.2.2023

10-min fiction 1-1-2023

10-min fiction is a new project. Each post is a fiction written in about 10 minutes.

Prompt: middle school students who are yearning to become fiction writers

It started as jealousy. she was a better writer than he was; she claimed she had attended an academy for philosophy. He thought that was why she had an air of amorphous aura around her.

As the wind blew through the window, the afternoon sunset glimmered corner of the classroom as the large window curtain flapped melodiously. It was an early fall, and the air had a pleasant sweetness.

The classroom was empty. Students were outside at the school field, playing games in groups of four to five. Only he and the girl were sitting next to each other by their desks. They were sitting next to each other because that was their assigned seats. But he was more curious about her than just a coincidence.

She recalled a trip to the west ocean side with her mom when she was little. She told him a story about how her original name was “west ocean.” He forgot the story but remembered it was with a hint of melancholy that she told this story to him.

Such a hint of trauma intrigued him further. At this point, it wasn’t clear if it was a mysterious appeal of hers or jealousy that led him to say “yes” when he was asked if he would like to revise her manuscript.

Her manuscript described two characters in the middle of the plain in autumn. They were swordsmen, one male and the other female, talking of fate. The female swordsman stabbed the other swordsman in the chest, and the blood spilled on dry yellow grass. The female swordsman shed a tear and spoke to the wounded swordsman.

There the manuscript ended. It was incomplete, but it embodied an inevitable sadness that must come between the woman and the men. It was clearly well-written, with wisely chosen words to carry the feelings of the story.

Yet, out of jealousy, he said this manuscript was rubbish. The girl replied, “oh, that’s unfortunate,” and threw the manuscript into the trash can.

Perhaps it was a pang of guilt he had then that pushed him to decide to write fiction one day.

Star

one is enough
among the many, one is enough.
enough to fill the heart with sunset
enough to feel the touch deep in the chest
one is enough among the many.

so, stop dozing off in that corner of the room.
get up, and brace yourself for a parade
one day your chance will come too soon
you’ll want to catch it at any rate

let that star be shining upon you;
the lucky ones, unlucky ones, all of you.
for the brave heart deserves a respect
may it venture the world with a circumspect

1.1.2023

Distance

ever wondered about ‘distance’?
there are those who are so close to us,
yet feel so far away from us;
while there are those far away from us,
yet feel so close at our heart;

for some, I want to hold
both of their hands and say out loud
“you know I love you, right?”
yet not a single word’ll pass through their ear

for some, I sit silently next to them
and they know;
my feelings deeply buried
quietly ignites and awaits for them.

it’s this distance that I am fascinated about.
I wish everyone a good luck for the new year.

12.31.2022