Blue Jay

I don’t know what it is I am feeling now
it feels as though my chest is hollow
sinking deeper into the eath
waves of regrets awash me
inevitability and inescapability weighs on me

horn blows, the final call of the day.
I hesitate a little, wondering if I should leave.
it appears there’s nothing holding me here

then I glimpse at the child, one I used to know
there was something, like a saying or promise
but I can’t seem to remember.

I wonder what it is. I wonder if it still matters.
a little longer, if I am free to do so.
just a bit longer, if I may.

10.9.2022

Child girl

her hair ruffled like a city mice
her eyes glimpse deep through the lies
you try to feed her no matter
you explain it’s for the better

she dances among the shadows
when the party is lively
but goes to the lakeside shallows
when no one is looking silently

as the night lingers for long
I wonder what took her song

12.10.2021