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for whatever reason, I survived.
it appears there’s no reason, but I’m fine.
I now know how I fell, now I want to rise
I may fall again, I hope you to thrive

for whatever reason, the world goes on
no matter what others say, we dream on
the world filled with paradox. still, stay calm.
it will come to a full circle, if we march on

11.18.2022

Aftermath

it’s the morning glory after the storm.
everything seemed to have been ravaged
except for the scorched earth
there’s no meaning of anything after all.
but there’s a solace.
in spite of the absurdity of the world,
there will always be warmth.
in spite of the logical traps, the guilt, and the shame,
you deserve a a piece of love.
it’s okay to fall.
rise again, over and over again
I hope the world will be kind to show you love again.

11.7.2022

Tradeoffs

a silent tsunami of grief engulfed the world
blindsided, I am pulled deep under pressure
it’s rather calm within cacophony of disasters
before I daze myself in beauty of this mess
I must inflict a wound upon myself
waking myself up to what is now and here
and work harder towards the reward
reward may be the unknown yet
but I put a blind faith in it
perhaps it is to land a hand to those
who even struggle to breath
who dream of walking freely outside
who yearn to see the daylight,
for I can. I can experience this.
let these people experience this too.

11.15.2022

Finite

one day, I looked at my legs,
I realized it is a finite thing.
Unlike the equations,
the websites, the photos,
it is slowly, surely, aging.
I wondered if I thought
my legs would last forever.

I realized there’s not much time for me either.
I’ve been trying to survive so far.
Now, I’d like to love.
I’d like to live every second
appreciating all things that are love.
So, I sow love from within
slowly dancing in the rain.

11.14.2022

Lions

they smelled the traces I left behind
fear has a strong stench to all but one with it
the shadows of them looming ever larger
unknown, unseen, unfathomable fangs grow bigger
but one must remember
“ash to ash”
for what do you have to lose after all?
it’s a life that was granted as an extra.
live with a full heart
see what the world holds
at the end, we’ll see
till then, let us be
courageous
ambitious
virtuous

11.12.2022

Churn

yup, it’s going to be a run covered in fire;
lack of sleep does get you going somehow
yet you know it is there, the desire;
almost as if in a supernatural power to plow
whatever obstacle that comes in your way
before the sun set at the end of the day
the desire to grow, compete, and win
the desire to connect, recollect, and dream
one day at a time
one day it will be here.

11.11.2022

Help

it looks like I am not in a good place
I didn’t notice the signs until they turned red
I am not trying to find or beg for solace
but I do know I need a help
as my high school history teacher once said:
“help”
it’s not a white towel thrown out yet
I just need to get out of this maze
that I have put myself in.
so “help”

11.10.2022