Insomnia

I am shaking my legs out of a bad habit
words are running through my mind nonstop
jaws are clenched, neck is stiff, eyes are strained
my breath is forced, ruggedly inhaling, exhaling
then it pops into my head like a red stop

‘what are you doing now?
enough of your excuses.
now is the time to wake up
try fooling others, you might
but don’t try to fool yourself.
be honest.
be brutally honest.
now is the time to live,
to lead your own life.
don’t look away.’

it is still dark outside
the night is long
but eventually
the sun will rise.
the sun will rise,
the sun will rise.

12.4.2022