Window

when I walk on the street,
I like to stare at apartment windows.
once in awhile, I’ll catch an eye contact
with a bored resident looking down
they will jump and hide themselves.
it’s kind of funny,
how an unsuspecting connection
can be so surprising.
just to let them know they are not alone,
I like to stare at apartment windows
when I walk on the street.

4.18.2023

History

as yellow sunlight hit the white building,
I sensed the world was a little softer
in spite of the self-important talk of passerby
I felt the world turning slower
but is this my world?
beyond what words can describe,
I can sense what feels to be true.
the moment I see, hear, and say the word
I am engulfed back into my world
one that I know to be true,
one that I yearn for all this time.
as I sail through uncharted territory
I stare at the stars, hopeful it will guide me.
hopeful that the truth lies beyond the horizon.

4.15.2023

New

I held on to the ghost of past for too long
all the grind, sacrifices, and promises
I made them reasons to keep the shells
insulated from ever-changing world
and digging deeper in a juggernaut suit.
but perhaps it’s not too late to try new.
perhaps that’s where the glory comes from.
perhaps it is in letting go it becomes great.
and maybe, all those who sacrificed,
who made the promises
wanted to me to let them go too.
I will remember them
and I will move on.

4.14.2023

Tears

I wanted to let the tears flow.
I bit the tip of my tongue with my teeth,
yet I did not cry.
then I remembered how unfair it was
that what I know now is unknown to my past
I stared at my youthful, naive self crumbling
as the inevitable lances fell from above
I spoke, out of pain, but no voice let out
instead, thick drops of tears fell down.

4.13.2023

Believe

to believe, when you know nothing, is easy.
to believe, when you know something, is hard.
to keep away from our wishy-washy desires, to stay true to the truth,
and to keep our eyes at our dreams & goals, and satiate our hungry stomach with them
is a way to believe.
to believe, against all the odds,
to believe, against all the sharp knives below,
to believe, towards our dream in the stars
is to live a life with hope.

4.12.2023