Star

haha!
there’s no one here
it’s darkness and emptiness all over
not a single light in sight
alright then
let me be the light
let me shine as bright as possible
no matter how short lived it may be.
let it reach the eyes of someone else
who might be here
thousands of light years away from here
let them see the light
and give them hope
to carry on

10.10.2023

Give

like a soccer ball kicked around too much,
like a tree enduring harsh winters
like a pebble in an ocean, smoothed all over,
I stand here trying to get up again.
I squeezed my heart and let out a roar
yet expectations of my beloved don’t budge.
I am jumping over the mountains
and be sturdy as a lightening rod,
yet torrents of disappointments won’t stop.
I am sensing the light within me flickering
yet not know what to do.
I hold onto the mast as I hope for enlightenment.

10.10.2023

Fair

when you realize
the wind is calling you to run faster,
but the mountain builds higher and higher,
when you see there are more rocks to climb
and yet, there are no rewards at the end,
only the punishment,
you sometimes need to stop and stare
at the little things that matter.
and remember to count the breaths
for they are the constant present
and the only thing you will have
until the moment you close your eyes.

10.9.2023

Keep

even after you’ve done your best
odds may not favor you.
there are those you can control
and those you must admit you cannot control
even as the inevitable befalls onto you,
squirm.
keep squirming. keep your vision. keep rising again.
even if the world falls upon you
even if this may be the end
you’ll know you have done your best.
keep squirming.
inevitably, the odds may favor you one day.

10.8.2023

Curiosity

somewhere a flake of white snow fell
it touched upon my heart and melted
I could not tell if it was my heart or the snow
Its curious eyes stared into my soul
I could only reply in bare honesty.
I hope to tell my life story
all of its flaws and meanings
and I want to listen to it
where it came from
and what it has seen.
it would be a good long night
listening to stories.

10.4.2023

Slip

it appears I wanted to much?
what do you call this?
this bright little thing
a silver thread
that slips through your fingers
and disappears into darkness.
is it called hope?
it lingered on my finger tips awhile.
well, I deeply appreciated it while it lasted.
now, the darkness engulfs this sphere.
it’s another time to take a deep, long dive
into the darkness.
I wish to see it again,
that bright silver lining.

10.3.2023