Author: Ralph

Hey, this is unedited, unprocessed, crude writing; bear this in mind as you read this.

I have been struggling to keep a promise that I had made a long time ago. Far long ago before I met you.

But I made the promise without knowing well enough about the world or myself.

I didn’t know what I wanted, who I was, or what I needed to do.

I blindly pursued things that I thought gave me a chance to see the light, what I thought was the right thing to do.

In the end, I learned that, even if you run as fast and long as you can, if you are still blinded, you will still be in the same place.

Now I see the path that I must take. It looks tough, but it also feels right. I can sense that my heart will be content at the end if I do this.

Before I go on, I want to address what happened to me. You may be disappointed about my result. But I am not viewing this as a failure. The result I have received was a part of a natural process I had to go through. Intuitively, and unconsciously, I think I sensed this was coming.

And even though I tried to undermine how important the time we spent together by happenchance was to me, I must acknowledge that it had built a sense of friendship, at least. I have grown a profound respect for your patience, insight, and wisdom.

I don’t want to get in your way, but I don’t want to disrespect this memory either. I promise I won’t cross the line.

Here is what I am working on: I am starting to walk the path that I had promised to walk before, and at the same time, I am building the foundation to contribute to the cause we both had agreed upon before.

That is to say, I haven’t given up on the research yet. I will find a way to return in a different capacity. Yes, I will have grown a few lines on my forehead, and I may be a few rows behind your seat. But this feels like the right thing to do, and I am excited to pursue this project.

I just wanted to let you know this.

3.21.2025