come, stay and let's talk. it's a good day to be alive
I’ve heard there’s no limit to koi fish to grow.
But caged in a small glass bowl
looking out into the world,
I’ve heard it does not fathom ever growing larger
than the size of a bowl
I wonder how I can scoop one out of the bowl
and let it grow in the river
so that it can grow, swim free as it wishes,
and rise to its calling,
to become a dragon.
6.4.2022
Allow me to keep my faithfulness,
allow me to hold onto principles,
allow me to share warmth with others,
allow me to build a refuge for those in need,
allow me to discern virtue from vice
allow me to remember my humble origin
allow me to share a moment with others.
6.3.2022
wherever you are, I wish you love.
smile when you want to smile,
run freely when you want to run.
I wish you peace in mind and heart.
I hope there is a shade of tree leaves
to release you from unforgiving heat.
wherever you are, I wish you love.
6.2.2022
sometimes I wonder
whether it was worthwhile to have done it all
when, in the end, all you come to
is the starting point all over again
but you’ve gone through point of no return
you’ve vowed to avenge your youth
you’ve been bruised, bled, and bloodied
by thousands of cuts by those passing by
when, at the point of arrival, you realize
you’ve arrived at the opposite direction
of where everyone needed you to be
where you have cried your soul into black instead
I wonder if all those were worthwhile after all
6.1.2022
I swear I was awake all the time
but before I knew what was going on,
I felt a warm and cozy feeling in my chest
the warmth glowed like a firefly
faithfully staying alight as the dusk falls
I stretched my hand to grasp it
but it slipped through my fingers
dissolving into its respite, the darkness
silence filled the night
as I waited.
5.31.2022
can we slow down a little
be gentle for a moment
instead of walking to hit each other
talking as if to run away from another
staring as if to judge the other
can we see each other just as we are
stop hiding, running, and insulting
can we just, for a moment,
acknowledge each other?
5.4.2022
I was sitting on a wooden chair
next to a wide balcony window
through which sunlight like
golden desert sand beamed softly
basking in the light I read a book
and across the table was my mom
reading her book in silence
I don’t know why
but it was the warmest moment.
5.2.2022
mind is in a blurry white mist
time passes slowly but a day goes by fast
as if a cold sandbag’s on my head and freezes
train of thoughts, perhaps it’s Tylenol that has
thankfully quenched the fire of white knots
perhaps it’s the lack of sleep from last night
I can’t tell; since I lost sense of smell
what feelings I had day-to-day
except for this salty mucus with hint of sadness
I suppose I should continue to work
for nothing else seems to give me relief
4.13.2022
some describe it white fire
others, hot knife
it’ll makes you alert for awhile
but try to dodge and not fight
soon it’ll make you cry
out of misery and inescapability
if you can, avoid prolonged exposure
it may take your sleep, your thoughts, and your will.
so don’t be stubborn
just get the Tylenol
4.12.2022
fuck, I want to see you now
one last time
I don’t know when we all will die
maybe there’s a better perfecter future
but I know I want to see you
yes, I know it must be your own choice
I won’t force it so I am waiting
but fuck, I want to see you now
one last time.
before the Spring goes.
4.11.2022
Ralph with Coffee 
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