Patron

After the fear, pain, and shame passed by

I found myself shivering for warmth.

I held on to the words “Expecto patronum”

as if clinging on to a life vest in the middle of dark ocean

hoping somehow, contrary to all of the evidence presented in my bare memory

that I could find a solace in warmth again.

As I mumbled yet another “Expecto patronum”

I took a step forward. Then another, and kept moving on.

One day, it will be alright.

I will carry you to where the warmth is.

Hold on to your light, and stay alight.

It’s all going to be alright.

6.27.2026

Leap

I have taken the leap of faith to the wrong side

opposite of where those who have been waiting to catch me

into those who had already left me.

Not only does it hurt to have my trust betrayed

but knowing that I have betrayed the trust of those who believed me

has left a piece of burning ice in my soft spot.

It hurts. It’s searing. It cut through.

Still,

Thank you for this valuable lesson.

Thank you for believing in me.

Thank you for carrying on.

6.26.2026