like a soccer ball kicked around too much,
like a tree enduring harsh winters
like a pebble in an ocean, smoothed all over,
I stand here trying to get up again.
I squeezed my heart and let out a roar
yet expectations of my beloved don’t budge.
I am jumping over the mountains
and be sturdy as a lightening rod,
yet torrents of disappointments won’t stop.
I am sensing the light within me flickering
yet not know what to do.
I hold onto the mast as I hope for enlightenment.
10.10.2023