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I laughed, because it was so sad;
I don’t know how else to deal with it.
bone-crashing depression is an oxymoron
but it hurts real bad, so you laugh to lift it up
it’s truly funny sometimes, how the life goes.
I am just grateful I can laugh with people I love.
I am humbled by their openness to accept my jokes.
that’s where I find the courage
to look forward to the future unknown.
2.17.2023
a big wave washed by
its crashing sound afar now faint
golden yolk of a sun arises towards the sky
redeeming its former glory
grateful to have a footing on the earth again
ready for a gleeful rumble and tumble
hoping to smile more again
10.10.2022
sitting here in my chair
reading your notifications
as jazz music flows in earbuds
in this silent dark night
I start noticing
tiny little bits of light
building in my chest
I realized it was a reflection
of light from everywhere
it is still a dark night
and I embraced all of these light
with gratitude
and a vow to pay it forward
10.6.2022
I sometimes imagine what it would be like to have myself as a kid;
a young kid, who depends on me,
who asks me for stuffs that I don’t want to buy,
and who rebels against what I believe in.
maybe I’ll get upset,
maybe I’ll try to persuade the kid,
or maybe I’ll try to manipulate the kid.
so when I see my own parent
be so real with me,
be so honest with me,
and be so pure-minded with me,
my fists melt in gratitude,
my head bows in humbleness,
and my heart swells in love.
It is true:
I am grateful for my parents.
6.17.2022
we can’t ignore we live in a selfish world
it is rather virtuous to be self-interested
not because of bitter reasons
but because when you walk the walk
the path so tortuous and lonesome,
in the end of long tunnel, there might be light
perchance collision of shooting stars
the explosive beginning of all
and I am grateful for you
to have walked the walk
and to collide with me
here and now
5.16.2022
hi it’s good to see you again
it’s unfortunate to meet in this moment
too coincidental and easily mistakable
but I say the truth plainly: nothing happened.
if you want to leave, feel free to.
of course I will miss you
but if it is not meant to be, let it be
perhaps it’s a price I pay for one of past sins
it is an honor to have met you
you’ve inspired me with your brilliance and charisma found in leader of truth
still,
it is my hope to see you again.
if ever, will I get a chance, I’ll hold onto it as dearly as I can
for it means more than ‘un million de bagels’
parce que it is Spring, after all.
3.16.2022
it hurts, but it hurts good
‘ain’t all pain no good?’ you might say
but hear me out: sometimes,
just out of nowhere, it strikes you
maybe it wasn’t even born too long ago
maybe it has just tasted it’s first blood
but the way with which it hurts you
you just sit back and kind of laugh at it
wondering how genious all this mess is
how beautiful it can be in its own way
and once you are done marveling at it
you just gotta walk the walk
like all living beings gotta do
rub off the tears off your cheeks
be thankful for the ride, the fight, and the scars.
2.19.2022
how clearly the sunset is bright
I didn’t realize until this moment
every seconds of cold and dark night
is worth waiting for this glorious event
yes, it was as though walking in a desert
into an unknown territory, whose stomach
is unfathomably vast and dangerous
yet now, all of those past became the manure
to nourish a future much more mature
how humbly grateful it is to be at this stage
how fortunate it is to have teachers so great
2.19.2022
every step of the way into the spotlight
I fought with everything that I’ve got
yet now I realize what helped me get inside
was sweat and faith of all my family despite
my bigger-than-myself dream of life
so every step of the way into the spotlight
I thank each one of them for their plight
2.9.2022
Ralph with Coffee 