Blue Jay

I don’t know what it is I am feeling now
it feels as though my chest is hollow
sinking deeper into the eath
waves of regrets awash me
inevitability and inescapability weighs on me

horn blows, the final call of the day.
I hesitate a little, wondering if I should leave.
it appears there’s nothing holding me here

then I glimpse at the child, one I used to know
there was something, like a saying or promise
but I can’t seem to remember.

I wonder what it is. I wonder if it still matters.
a little longer, if I am free to do so.
just a bit longer, if I may.

10.9.2022

Steam

when there’s fire growing in you,
be aware of where it is directing you
with fierce momentum,
you may actually be heading towards a wall
and when you hit the wall
euphoria, thrill, and energy all will dissipate
memories of bravado and chivalry
all but a blip in the realm of infinite desert
be aware of where the fire brings you
and pray that prudence will safeguard you

10.7.2022

Embrace

sitting here in my chair
reading your notifications
as jazz music flows in earbuds
in this silent dark night
I start noticing
tiny little bits of light
building in my chest
I realized it was a reflection
of light from everywhere
it is still a dark night
and I embraced all of these light
with gratitude
and a vow to pay it forward

10.6.2022

Why?

I thought your message was clear
like an echo bouncing from mountains
when I shout a call for a meeting;
empty, and no chance of ever seeing again
so it’s an unexpected surprise,
when there is a blazing trail of messages
laid out to read, but these are illegible
please, give me something, something clear
I’ve been shouting all this time
now my voice is harsh and heart is vulnerable
please show the sign to this eyes,
and I’ll make your time worth it.

10.1.2022

You

I am thinking about you
you were always there
in times of hardship
in times of peace
no matter what others say
no matter what you had to go through

hang on with me just a little longer
we are pushing ahead for another run
it won’t be the last,
and no guarantee we’ll come back
but at least we are in this together.

one more time, into the fray, we go.

9.26.2022

Rise

this isn’t the time to fall asleep
this isn’t a time for a self-pity
it’s time to see the world as it is
and act on what you can change
prepare for what may be hard to change

it’s a trick of the mind you need to see through
when you walk through dark tunnel
under the weight of an ocean
I wish you a safe journey.

9.25.2022