Tag: life

History

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as yellow sunlight hit the white building,
I sensed the world was a little softer
in spite of the self-important talk of passerby
I felt the world turning slower
but is this my world?
beyond what words can describe,
I can sense what feels to be true.
the moment I see, hear, and say the word
I am engulfed back into my world
one that I know to be true,
one that I yearn for all this time.
as I sail through uncharted territory
I stare at the stars, hopeful it will guide me.
hopeful that the truth lies beyond the horizon.

4.15.2023

New

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I held on to the ghost of past for too long
all the grind, sacrifices, and promises
I made them reasons to keep the shells
insulated from ever-changing world
and digging deeper in a juggernaut suit.
but perhaps it’s not too late to try new.
perhaps that’s where the glory comes from.
perhaps it is in letting go it becomes great.
and maybe, all those who sacrificed,
who made the promises
wanted to me to let them go too.
I will remember them
and I will move on.

4.14.2023

Tears

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I wanted to let the tears flow.
I bit the tip of my tongue with my teeth,
yet I did not cry.
then I remembered how unfair it was
that what I know now is unknown to my past
I stared at my youthful, naive self crumbling
as the inevitable lances fell from above
I spoke, out of pain, but no voice let out
instead, thick drops of tears fell down.

4.13.2023

Believe

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to believe, when you know nothing, is easy.
to believe, when you know something, is hard.
to keep away from our wishy-washy desires, to stay true to the truth,
and to keep our eyes at our dreams & goals, and satiate our hungry stomach with them
is a way to believe.
to believe, against all the odds,
to believe, against all the sharp knives below,
to believe, towards our dream in the stars
is to live a life with hope.

4.12.2023

Art

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how is it possible this small old lady
lands a mighty blow with her slightest effort?
decades of battle experience is not for naught
a flick of her wrist, a flash of light,
and the weight of a monument crushes down
I thought I would show her and everyone
how much I had grown over the past month
yet in a blink of an eye, I am humbled.
those with decades of experience need not a word
their gestures emanate with proofs.

4.8.2023

August 31st, 2017

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I took this photo on the night of August 31st, 2017, just before I moved out of my apartment in Boston, MA.

Two relationships, two jobs, and two roommates passed in this apartment. I shaved my hair on my own in the bathroom of this apartment for the first time. I went back to my religion on my own for the first time. I had a white Turkish Angora cat for the first time in this apartment.

2017 was the year I would have graduated with a degree that I did not want had I chosen to stay safe. This is where I faced the consequences as a result of deciding not to stay safe. I laughed. I cried.

This photo is a reminder that I chose my life.

Bug

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at first, I noticed a few things missing;
a little bit of food, a few notebooks,
and then a few photos.
I started to wonder if there was a bug;
a bug that gnaws at precious things.
I called an exterminator, but it didn’t stop.
I remembered: whatever you resist persists.
so I invited the bug to be a friend;
besides, there are a few people I call friends
and had spent much more dinners with them
than what I had lost to this bug.
if the bug will take what it will take regardless,
why not get to know the bug while at it?
forgive the ugly part, and move on with goods.

4.7.2023