Flying solo

when the world fell apart,
I know what I had to do.
but when the peace arrived,
I found myself flabbergasted.
paralyzed by too much possibilities
when I try to remember
what got me here
majority of it was spite,
to survive at all costs,
guilt,
to keep promises long overdue,
and a bit of love,
of the people I may not see again.
so I wonder,
if this path leads to more of the love.
more of virtue,
more of friendships,
and more of gratitude.

8.14.2022

Unchangeable

scenery before my eyes
blossoms into different shapes
heights, color, and, yes, scents.
with just a flick of a finger
with a grave weight.

Mind you, the weight of this act.
Let alone the sceneries,
mountains, oceans, and people,
thousands of millions of people
were passed by in a blink of an eye.

Yet remember;
remember regardless of this change.
the soft, unbreakable part of you
that you left behind.

also, remember your vow you made
in a blissful, youthful ignorance
to achieve what you’ve promised.
those bold promises you made
don’t let it go awashed into shade.

and lastly,
remember the love.
remember to love.

7.21.2022

Parenting

I sometimes imagine what it would be like to have myself as a kid;
a young kid, who depends on me,
who asks me for stuffs that I don’t want to buy,
and who rebels against what I believe in.
maybe I’ll get upset,
maybe I’ll try to persuade the kid,
or maybe I’ll try to manipulate the kid.
so when I see my own parent
be so real with me,
be so honest with me,
and be so pure-minded with me,
my fists melt in gratitude,
my head bows in humbleness,
and my heart swells in love.
It is true:
I am grateful for my parents.

6.17.2022