Guidance

Dear kid,

pour your heart out. it’s gonna be alright.
With questions of friendships, identity, and self-worth,
try letting your grip soften up a little
instead of sitting in the middle of the street,
try walking, singing the song of your own anthem
beating your heart to your own rhythm
march on. be fearless.
and it’s okay to crash and fail.
it’s okay to do nothing at all.
whatever contends your heart,
try it all.
your answer may lie near you.

6.6.2022

Koi Fish

I’ve heard there’s no limit to koi fish to grow.
But caged in a small glass bowl
looking out into the world,
I’ve heard it does not fathom ever growing larger
than the size of a bowl
I wonder how I can scoop one out of the bowl
and let it grow in the river
so that it can grow, swim free as it wishes,
and rise to its calling,
to become a dragon.

6.4.2022

Worthwhile

sometimes I wonder
whether it was worthwhile to have done it all
when, in the end, all you come to
is the starting point all over again
but you’ve gone through point of no return
you’ve vowed to avenge your youth
you’ve been bruised, bled, and bloodied
by thousands of cuts by those passing by
when, at the point of arrival, you realize
you’ve arrived at the opposite direction
of where everyone needed you to be
where you have cried your soul into black instead
I wonder if all those were worthwhile after all

6.1.2022

Moving 2

like a delay before a good sneeze,
you know it is coming, until it’s in front of your nose;
and then, bam!
the deadline is here.
everything must change, the lights, the shapes,
the forms, the texture, the air, the color,
the warmth, the coolness, the wetness,
the hardness, the mythic enchantedness,
everything, everything must change;
and along with it, part of you must go too!
be careful; otherwise you might lose something precious.
witness.
remember.
then move on.

5.22.2022

Moving

I sense electrifying anxiousness
as I wait for the day to move out of my apartment
morning rituals, golden sunsets, night sceneries,
as if an invisible switch had turned,
will all be far out of reach
to live in a space is to build a life
to uproot what you had
it is rather heartbreaking
maybe there is a proper way to say goodbye
I just hope I can move on fine
and remember all the memories

5.21.2022

Hidden Gem

even in an apocalypse, there is love
unselfish love that keep us warm
even during a rat race on a collapsing road
love that allows us to become a juggernaut
impenetrable passion to protect the beloved
it’s a soft gentle touch to the heart
even as all things around us fall apart
that remembers what life is worth
and let us fight the good fight

5.20.2022