Providence, Rhode Island (Day 1) – June, 2024

In June 2024, I revisited New England, which I had left five years ago. After nine years of the dark and cold, it had felt like a good riddance then. But this time, my stay in Providence, Rhode Island, glistened brighter than any memory in a recent decade that I could recall. And I suspected it was thanks to my travel companion and the perfectly nice weather during my visit that made this trip shine.

Sunset over the Detroit Metropolitan Wayne County Airport during a layover

The primary purpose of the trip to New England was for an academic event. I flew from one of the southern states and arrived in the middle of the night. I took a Lyft ride from the T.F. Green International Airport. As we drove through the night, the Nigerian Lyft driver stressed the importance of trying Jollof, a type of sticky rice traditionally made in Nigeria. He inquired about academia and how his two teenage children can choose the right academic path. I had no answer for him, but I tried to give him as much information as possible. Eventually, his Lyft navigation app showed that he had arrived at the destination. He dropped me off at a location that just looked like the middle of a pedestrian street; there was no obvious door to a hotel or a motel. It was just a street with small commercial shops lined shoulder to shoulder. In fact, the location provided by an email from the hostel where I made a reservation said it was between a Dunkin Donuts and a vape smoke shop. Upon investigating the corners, I found a hidden glass door that led upstairs. Once I walked up the spiral stairs, I found a dorm-like hallway, one of which had the number of the apartment unit I had made the reservation for. I opened the lock with the passcode I received and entered the door.

A person sleeps on the doorsteps to the entrance between a smoke shop and a coffee shop

Upon walking into the apartment room, I was hit by a humid air steamed with wood furniture. The smell of wooden furniture immediately brought a flashback to the college dormitory years. I didn’t realize I missed this smell until I smelled it. It has been more than a decade since I entered that dorm, and the memory has not gone away.

The smell of this wooden desk & chair reminds me of college dorms

The bed was a queen-size bed made by putting two twin-size mattresses together. There was a therapist sofa, where you lie down with a tilted back bolstered by a cushion. The windows were covered in layers of white semi-transparent curtains, and two interesting oil paintings hung on the wall. I was too tired to care about the details. I spilled the contents from my luggage and found a toothbrush and a toothpaste, and walked to what I thought was a restroom. It was indeed a restroom, but a public one. One where you can clearly see if a dude is dropping poops into toilet through the gap in the door. Thankfully, there were multiple shower cubicles. I brushed my teeth and lay my head on the pillow. Alas, a young, budding DJ working night shift at the smoke shop decided it was the day he/she honed their beat-dropping skills. With a heavy woofer shaking the bed frame with odd-sounding beats, I tried to go to sleep.

Queen-size bed made with two twin-size beds

Day 1

I woke up early in the morning, undeterred by the private electronic dance music party I had been treated to all night long. I decided to find something to eat for breakfast. On Google Maps, I found Bagel Gourmet Ole (288 Thayer St.). The restaurant was filled with the aroma of freshly toasted bagels, and the kitchen was already bustling with workers who quietly beamed in the morning hustle. The morning cold air and the warmth of the kitchen reminded me of the sense of community and camaraderie shared among those who survive the brutally cold and dark weather of New England. There was no table, but customers came in and out religiously.

At Bagel Gourmet Ole, I got the cinnamon raisin bagel with cheese, which cost me $5.63 + tax + tip (I’d rate it 7/10)

Despite its hefty cost, the bagel was not enough for my appetite. I returned to my Google Map and found the East Side Pockets (278 Thayer St.), a Middle Eastern restaurant. As I lingered at the entrance, staring at three large panels of menus, I heard a call from the kitchen counter. A middle-aged bald man with a beer belly and a salt-and-pepper beard was holding out what looked like two fried balls. I sheepishly took them. I couldn’t let him keep holding them or risk throwing them away. And as soon as I bit into these dry, greasy fried balls of fish, I knew I had to order something from this restaurant. I was in too deep already. So I ordered a lamb shawarma, for the sake of the fond memory I had with the food in Tunisia.

At East Side Pockets, I ordered a lamb shawarma, which tasted okay, but had good quantity (I’d rate it 6/10)

The shawarma was not as fresh as the ones I remembered from Tunisia. But its hefty quantity gave me enough energy to face the first day of the academic workshop. Since I had a bit of time until the start of the first lecture, I decided to cut through the neighborhood.

What I appreciated about the neighborhood is its reserved but florid community. Since 1636, the neighborhood has been accumulating its history. Colonial-style apartments were part of the organic system with fauna and trees. If you can get used to walking steep uphill and downhill, it’s a walkable, petite town with an atmosphere of literary chic (you have to be there to know this means). Moreover, it connects to the Atlantic Ocean via the Providence River!

After a morning walk around Providence, I attended the workshop. After the seminar was over, I was asked to grab lunch at Harry’s Bar & Burger (121 N Main St.). Of course, I took up the offer. Unfortunately, I didn’t take any photos in this dive bar. I ordered (I think) Mother of All Burgers with sweet potato fries and a bottle of Heineken (I’d rate it 4/10). I remember (I think) that the beef batty was slightly burnt and dry, and the caramelized onions were sticky with molten American cheese. I was too busy talking about personal experiences and childhood memories. You’d be surprised at how quickly you can get to know me as a person in just a few minutes over a beer and a burger.

When we were done, we took a walk up the hill to digest the greasy food we had just consumed. We decided to walk upwards without giving it much thought. On the way uphill, we came across a fortress-like wall. On top of that fortress, we found a small park. It was the Prospect Terrance (60 Congdon St.).

Prospect Terrace looking over downtown Providence

From Prospect Terrace, I found a panoramic view looking over downtown Providence. Just in time, the sun was setting by the time we sat on the bench. When I was asked what I would do if I didn’t have to concern myself with research, I said I would become a philosopher. I was surprised by my own answer. I heard myself explaining that I was inspired by a book called Love & Free, written by Takahashi Ayumu, and that I’d be interested in traveling around the world and exploring the thoughts of various minds. In turn, my new work friend replied that she wants to become a professional pizza maker (It was at this moment that I realized I had taken the question too seriously). After completing my program, I said I am interested in leading a healthcare institution that serves the underserved community. How I would do it with a research degree, I did not know yet. We called it a day, and each of us walked back to our respective temporary lodgings.

One last look at the Prospect Terrace.

Maybe it was the beer and the greasy burger, but I felt glad to have visited Providence. The weather reminded me of the hard-boiled nine years of living in New England. The greasy dive bar, the salty air of the Atlantic Ocean, and the grace of the sunlight after a season of cold, dark months were what awakened long-dormant memories of living in New England. I remembered the long-forgotten walks, talks, and trips I had with friends in New England. I didn’t know I missed it until I came back.

It took me a while to fall asleep on this day. I wanted to linger a bit longer in the nostalgia. But it was time to go to sleep for another day, and I eventually hit the bed. Thankfully, the DJ downstairs decided to take a break from his side gig in electronic dance music. I took my window of opportunity and fell asleep.

I will continue the story with Day 2 in a separate post!

Longing

Fortunately – or unfortunately –

I glimpsed over at the nocturnal green cover

William Matthews’s poetry book.

The flash of lazy summer sky

over the three-story apartment in Brookline

zooming by like a blurry window scene in an Amtrak car.

The sweet warmth – that somehow imbued under my skin

from the hollow cool atmosphere above –

radiated in waves, like softly swinging hammock

with a glass of wine and a love song from radio head.

I blinked. I stared ahead towards what was to come.

Warmth – I chose to believe what I felt in my heart.

The glowing red yolk over the horizon –

graciously engulfing all my worries and sadness –

gloriously radiating, unapologetically, childishly, happily.

my arms are wide open without the usual guard

for I chose to live once more again.

6.24.2024

Solo

“from ash to ash”
it’s the only words I remember
from that one lazy afternoon
as the sunset refracted in the mirror
hung on a door next to a post-it note

like the moon hung on an azure summer sky
shining through a sun window
like the lush tree branches humming in waves
the words imprinted in a lonesome memory
imploring the meaning yet unknown

had I known the path I’ve chosen
were filled with such bitter tears
just to see that smile under the sunrise
I may still walk the same walk I’d taken

perhaps, maybe with less weight, because
we are all alone in the end.

3.5.2022

Bicycle

Pedaling on a blue bike, paean of breezy winds bumping along the road

Rumbling sounds of SUVs and pick up trucks passing by, rowdy kids jumping into the lake half naked

Roaring laughter fading away, riding down a long lonely road in between the animate and inanimate nature

Blazing through a carpet of gold laden by the bleeding yolk of the sunset

Rolling stone within the heart spins faster and faster, unleashing the monster hunkered for a thousand of years

Then — whirl — and — crash.

A reaper stands on the door expressionlessly peaking its bald skull over the door sill.

Like a dusky cloud on a simple summer night.

6.17.2020

Song

A summer night, as tree branches thread throughout the dark sky salted with stars,

The whole world swayed as the hammock weaves by thousands of threads swayed

Crimson ambers of cigarette quickly falling through the wholes, barely missing the threads,

Like an accident, falls into the wine glass,

Bursting with flame that cannot contain itself

I don’t care if it hurts

I wanna have control

So the song went, as the alcohol got thicker and hotter.

6.12.2020

Sunshine

May this light be always visible to you. Albeit a short moment, as I close my eyes, I seem to be still seeing the silhouette of your face as you blindingly brightly smiled

And I wished that I had given you

That note I wrote on a white tissue as the sun was setting over the horizon

When I met you riding a bike on the cross walk in a middle of night,

I wish I had said,

Thank you.

언제나 그대에겐 이 빛이 보이길. 아주 잠깐이었던 순간이지만 정말 환하게 미소 짓는 그대의 모습이 아직 눈을 감아도 보이는듯 하여

그날 저녁에 노을이 서서히 지어 새하얀 티슈에 썼던 그 편지

그대에게 드릴걸

어두운 저녁에 걸어가다 횡단보도에서 마주친 자전거 탄 그대에게

고맙다고,

인사라도 드릴걸

이제와서 입 다십니다.

5.30.2020

Humming bird

When the day is over,
Bittersweet and peaceful is the walk back home

Green brushes of tree leaves gracefully wave,
sparkling against sunlight

Gentle breeze caresses on an exhausted shoulders,
softening a tightened heart

As the sun warmly retires over horizon,
lanky shadows lay on this lonely street

A whiff of soft, fresh air of life
lifts up a spirit to delight.

6.26.2019

Book

No word escapes the fate of becoming a riddle

Azure blue sky cool as a slush of emerald ocean, puffs of white clouds gracefully slide by, silky breeze waltz around freely

Grasping vignette with my fist, slips away the time. Golden sunset comes, and then the dusk, and then the darkness.

In darkness, it’s forgotten. The beauty and the warmth. It is the place that iron and hammer work its way through time.

When the day and light comes back, the iron will continue its dance with hammer, whistling away sweats and singing hoorah

Another day, another fight, another dance.

6.23.209

Book

No word escapes the fate of becoming a riddle

Azure blue sky cool as a slush of emerald ocean, puffs of white clouds gracefully slide by, silky breeze waltz around freely

Grasping vignette with my fist, slips away the time. Golden sunset comes, and then the dusk, and then the darkness.

In darkness, it’s forgotten. The beauty and the warmth. It is the place that iron and hammer work its way through time.

When the day and light comes back, the iron will continue its dance with hammer, whistling away sweats and singing hoorah

Another day, another fight, another dance.

6.23.209