Dear younger self

it is alright. it is alright.
it is okay to let those tears fall.
it is okay to feel the pain
grabbing the core of your chest
and let that bawling late at night
when everyone’s asleep.
it’s alright. that’s right.
swim even when you feel numb in your limbs
slowly, slowly, your body will start warm up
and when you raise your head above water
you’ll see how glorious the red yolk of the sun is
rising through the solemn horizon
you’ll see, you’ll see.
it’s gonna be alright.

9.15.2022

Homeless flower

I thought smelled the scent of cheese
but then again, it could have been urine.
I turned and stared down onto a rock.
a grey, squared, flat rock.
there was a flower, albeit withered, on it.
a puff of white, yellow, and light purple
here and there carefully strewn about
and you think for a bit
who would have placed it there so carefully
as the dawn gets broken by the rising sun
and the cool azure hue dissipates
could it have been his last prayer
could it have been his last offering
could it have been his last hope?
one man’s fight,
one man’s statement,
and one man’s journey.

9.6.2022

Talk

it was a good day to have a talk.
the wind blew like blue ocean waves
sweeping across green tree bushes,
scattering golden light through its paths.
air was clear, sky was spotlessly sweet blue,
river was filled with fish swimming serenely.
perhaps a perfect peace, a piece of heaven abound.
walking on this path with you
perhaps this will be one of the most memorable moment
one that I’ll cherish for a long time from now.

6.7.2022

Three, Six

yes, I am quite certain now
the time has accelerated somehow
smiles of warmth washed to six
wild parade of blurry matches to three
only time stamp on an old dee-ess-el-ar
revealed a trick dorment between ears
perhaps a sign to run forward faster
perhaps a sign to cherish things slower
I wave a good-bye to sunset
now I understand how it was meant to be spent
3.25.2022

Blindedness

그녀의 노래를 들었다.
그녀와 이야기하고 있는 동안엔
심드렁했던 마음이
주춤주춤 춤을 추기 시작하더니
그녀만을 바라는 해바라기가 되었다
참 웃기지 아니한가
가지려면 가질 수 없고
버려질 것을 감수하면 얻을 수 있다는게
참 무섭지 아니한가
괴롭고도 고통스러운 길이
오직 살길이라는 사실이

I listened to her playlist.
my heart, that remained indifferent
when talking to her
started little bit by bit to dance
eventually becoming a sunflower
gazing towards her only
isn’t it funny
things you grasp onto will escape away
but things you let go will come to your side
isn’t it frightening
this painful and fearful path
is the one and only path to survival

3.6.2022

Hope

it’s as if every inch of breathing space is
whipped into whirlwinds of flowery fire in
this long narrow path we all must take
when light runs thousands of miles to make
this realization that, perhaps that’s all:
you’ve given it all, and now wait for your call

when darkness had lent its hand to me
I shook its hand
it was as if my bones shattered at mere touch
yet I did not let go.

there is more work to do
there will be a new day
the sun will rise again
there will be more

Sunshine

sometimes, when I get nervous,
I open my window, and let the sunshine through,
filling the room with golden light,
the kind of boulangère warmth that
keep a soul alight
and when I get a chance,

yes, if I do please get the chance,
I would like to share this warmth with another soul
hoping to alight this world a little brighter, softer, cozier.

2.11.2022