a moment of hesitation
creates a mile long gap
between what you could’ve been
and what you are now.
let us aim for the tallest wave
and launch at the chance
to seize them all.
5.7.2023
Doubt
Month: May 2023
Balance
like swimming in a river,
time pass by faster than I feel.
so do decisions we make.
Nothing’s for free,
and we’ll have to live with consequences.
may you find peace with it.
may you find a meaning within it.
5.6.2023
Fire
walk into the fire
if you try to survive
you will fail
if you dare to live right
you will succeed.
pain is transient
but your deeds will be remembered.
walk into the fire.
it will be alright.
5.5.2023
Spirit
I don’t know what to call it.
Memory? Shadow? Spirit?
One moment you see a person,
the next, you don’t see them.
Your friend, your mom or dad, your teacher,
one moment you see them with your eyes.
the next, you don’t.
So you believe.
You believe they are there with you.
just out of sight,
but they are there with you.
When I walk on the street,
or sit in an empty room,
I feel their presence.
And I remember/sense/imagine:
The way they talk,
the way they gesture,
the way they tell you
that they love you.
it is unmistakable.
I want to tell them:
“I remember all of you”
so I try leaving such tenderness
in the hearts of those dear to me.
As they have done for me.
5.4.2023
Sky
it’s a lonely world
when you are the one
believing the sky is blue
when everyone else
says it is red.
maybe they are from the West,
where their mountain
feeds fire into the sky,
but I believe the sky is blue.
I am sitting in this chair
imagining and lamenting,
but I forgot to look up at the sky.
now, you see,
it is grey.
will it be blue?
will it be red?
will it always be grey?
who knows.
let us eat our meal first.
5.3.2023
Thorn
there’s a thorn on the side of my toe.
scratching does not get at its source.
such small sting can deflate a good mood.
all left to do is to sit on it and wait
until it passes.
crying tears, roaring rage won’t do nothing.
I am waiting for the moment of healing.
5.2.2023
Raison
I wonder if I unleashed Pandora for myself.
boredom of living in a small town is real.
I’ve endured strikes of lightening bolts
withstood the weight of the ocean
and bled thousands of cuts by the others.
through it all, I brew one soul, one heart.
yet I wonder, what is the meaning of all this?
why go through such inglorious, tedious path?
perhaps, it is the path that I must take.
raison d’être. c’est toute.
5.1.2023
Cloud candy
I smoked a cigarettes for the first time
in almost 10 years
in my dream.
it felt so real
I had to remember
the dryness in my mouth
is not the nicotine tar
but unwashed icecream from night before.
let us not let our guard down
to the “one-offs”
let us stay awake
and walk up this hill
towards the threshold
where all efforts will prevail.
4.30.2023
Ralph with Coffee 