Blindedness

그녀의 노래를 들었다.
그녀와 이야기하고 있는 동안엔
심드렁했던 마음이
주춤주춤 춤을 추기 시작하더니
그녀만을 바라는 해바라기가 되었다
참 웃기지 아니한가
가지려면 가질 수 없고
버려질 것을 감수하면 얻을 수 있다는게
참 무섭지 아니한가
괴롭고도 고통스러운 길이
오직 살길이라는 사실이

I listened to her playlist.
my heart, that remained indifferent
when talking to her
started little bit by bit to dance
eventually becoming a sunflower
gazing towards her only
isn’t it funny
things you grasp onto will escape away
but things you let go will come to your side
isn’t it frightening
this painful and fearful path
is the one and only path to survival

3.6.2022

Shooting star

the sweet warmth hit my face point blank
stunned, I uttered few words of confusion
then softness disappeared around the corner
left me wondering ‘has all this been a dream?’

but the eyes, the smiles, the ears, and hairs
I remember them vividly; as if I could touch
had I been back into the past, that moment,
I’ll hold your hand and tell you: ‘I see you’

and would just stare into those eyes
those eyes deep with warmth and clarity
I may have rather a chilly side to my heart
but I’ll keep working it to bring you warmth

2.18.2022

Numb

feeling numb in a plastic bubble
staring out into the world
one pinched the wall
peeling away the shield

rushed in were emotions:
love, passion, and freedom;
city lights and the aurora;
magic filled the air
as one held reins to affair

but also came in fatigue and pain
from battles cries and sacrifices of attrition
beauties missed and promises broken
daggers in heart, tears in shadows
sweat soaked neck, dried blood on hand

but all in all,
one lived
and one died many times.
had one not jumped,
one would not have known.

12.28.2021

Imagine

can we just pause this world
imagine a world without
a stronger man and a weaker man
and just picture where
we can just talk about the art
of living?

can we push aside this anxiety
and shame of stupidity
and for once, ask the question
what are we all doing here?

so I say, my brother
we hold this glass to
yellow street light
and talk of this woman
we’ll drink to.

12.12.2021

Photo

grasping on to fleeting photos
crushing fragments of memories
flowing silky sand in an hourglass
rumbling sound in the far above sky

unquieted prayers of unmet goals
weight pushed onto each foot
gravity of time pulling skin and bones
fleeting worries hung in tree branches

we walk down the path
a narrow path open
in the middle of a wide park
one and only for you

12.6.2021

Photo

grasping on to fleeting photos
crushing fragments of memories
flowing silky sand in an hourglass
rumbling sound in the far above sky

unquieted prayers of unmet goals
weight pushed onto each foot
gravity of time pulling skin and bones
fleeting worries hung in tree branches

we walk down the path
a narrow path open
in the middle of a wide park
one and only for you

12.6.2021