Dear younger self

it is alright. it is alright.
it is okay to let those tears fall.
it is okay to feel the pain
grabbing the core of your chest
and let that bawling late at night
when everyone’s asleep.
it’s alright. that’s right.
swim even when you feel numb in your limbs
slowly, slowly, your body will start warm up
and when you raise your head above water
you’ll see how glorious the red yolk of the sun is
rising through the solemn horizon
you’ll see, you’ll see.
it’s gonna be alright.

9.15.2022

Sunset encounter

it was, albeit brief, a bright encounter
the wind was blowing the right way
the nostalgic sun light laid down warmly
as if written in the book,
as if it is the time to turn a page,
we arrived here: finally — quickly —
eye contact; flash of timid smile;
a question; a surprise; more thinking;
a bit; a burst of laughter;
explosion of emotions;
and then it came to an end —
with it, starts a dream of another rendez-vous
within you

9.13.2022

Sky blue

I feel blue
well what have you the clue?
ticking sound of a needle is getting louder
I am holding my two fists tighter,
faster, harder, better, but I realized
less soft I become, less connected, fossilized
dear blue sky,
here I lie
I have done my part, I believe.
if you will, show me what it will be:
the dream of our dreams.

학이시습지면 불역열호아라
진인사 대천명이라
나는 최선을 하고 있는 걸까요?
지도와 도움이 필요해요.
시간이 되면
도와줘요.

9.9.2022

Homeless flower

I thought smelled the scent of cheese
but then again, it could have been urine.
I turned and stared down onto a rock.
a grey, squared, flat rock.
there was a flower, albeit withered, on it.
a puff of white, yellow, and light purple
here and there carefully strewn about
and you think for a bit
who would have placed it there so carefully
as the dawn gets broken by the rising sun
and the cool azure hue dissipates
could it have been his last prayer
could it have been his last offering
could it have been his last hope?
one man’s fight,
one man’s statement,
and one man’s journey.

9.6.2022

Hold on

there are so many things you would want to say
but
you knew you had to keep them in;
stoicism, inferiority complex, principle;
you name it. there’s enough reason to sacrifice
but one day, the words will start to bud
growing into a tree, feeding on imagination
and you may build the world
with the words you’ve kept in.

9.1.2022

Gratitude

I did not know I’d be here 5 years ago
I had felt as though I was completely lost
lost in ocean as dark storm raged on
I only had a life vest to hold onto

who would have known it would be seen by others
who would have known I’d be boarded
onto this new world, world so bright
as I take one more step, I pray to pay my gratitude

오직 감사함만이 있을 뿐.

8.25.2022

New beginning

it’s yet another fresh start,
full of unknowns.
a whirlpool of butterflies in the heart,
ghosts of olden memories groans.

true to it all along
the unconscious calling
atoned for deeds gone wrong
now rising to face challenges

I pray this path will be the way
the way of becoming
what is true to all that is laid
the road to the living

새로운 시작을 맞이한다.
초심을 잃지 아니하며
이 길이 먼 훗날
떳떳한 길이 되길 바라며

8.24.2022