Honestly

I just want to hold you
sitting on the hill of green grasses
watching the warm orange sunset
through the lofty clouds over the sky
living a life of a sweet story
over and over, day after day
slow dancing to our rhythms
embraced in the sweet spring air
and softly, smoothly, fall in sleep together.
honestly, that’s what I want.

2.13.2023

Good

I sometimes right pompous words.
I talk grand and smart.
but in the end,
I wanted to be seen and appreciated.
to be acknowledged for the work I have done
and get a light pat on the back,
telling myself I have done a good work.
thank you for giving me the attention.
thank you for words of encouragements.
thank you for sharing your thoughts.
I see your warmth, your kindness, and goodness.
I realize I’ve been basking in your good mood.
I appreciate our connectedness
and I wish you well.

2.11.2023

Road

when I woke up,
I had a fragment of a memory
as if something had blown up
“what have I done?” was my inquiry

I recall:
some words spilled out.
nonchalant, I thought.
but they were explosive,
at least to those around.

how words trace back to the lips
like dark footsteps in white snow
how dangerous those words can be
like black ice, biding its time for revenge

2.9.2023

Stay

at the moment with embrace the full impact:
the pang of shame, regret, guilt, and whatnot;
I know that impulse — impulse to end it all —
but just don’t go yet.

don’t go walking into that darkness yet.

stay a little while.
take a deep breath with me — and
let it go — as naturally as it all should be.

notice the white dots in the dark sky —
shining brightly, traveling across universe —
to meet you at your eyes.

so stay a little while longer.
take it one step at a time.
in time, we’ll get there
and look back at it all and smile.

2.5.2023