Stay

at the moment with embrace the full impact:
the pang of shame, regret, guilt, and whatnot;
I know that impulse — impulse to end it all —
but just don’t go yet.

don’t go walking into that darkness yet.

stay a little while.
take a deep breath with me — and
let it go — as naturally as it all should be.

notice the white dots in the dark sky —
shining brightly, traveling across universe —
to meet you at your eyes.

so stay a little while longer.
take it one step at a time.
in time, we’ll get there
and look back at it all and smile.

2.5.2023

Past

sometimes I want to grab my past
and shout: “take me back”
I want to breath the fresh crisp air,
bask under the glistening gold sunlight
I see in my dreams in my dark night
I want to feel the levity of life
as if every day was a surprise playtime
if I see my past self in the mirror
sometimes I want to grab my past
and shout: “take me back”
but it’s the darkness that stares back at me
and I, staring back at the darkness.

2.3.2023

Spontaneous

It’s my first time living my life
I don’t know what tomorrow brings
so if I am rude at times
please understand I also have shortcomings
I try and see the world as good
sharing as best as I might
hoping for better future as anyone would
daring to live life with a fight
so bear with me when I am a grump
I will sleep on it and become a better chum

12.11.2022

Way

as I walk through the beach
I see people running;
some are running towards the ocean,
while others running towards the land.
some are dancing in the sand dune,
sweat droplets sprinkling over the desert
A few, I see then laying down under the sun
receiving, waiting for something unknown
all look merry in their occupation
but I walk the walk alone
steadily towards where my heart leads along.

11.9.2022

Growing

you don’t want to be in a bubble
but you also don’t want to be in an eye of a hurricane
all criticisms, admonishment, and yelling
I know they come from a good place
and I don’t have any grudges against you
but I wonder
if I started to like myself a little less
when I am yelled at for what I have done
when I am given a silent treatment for failing
I fought my way through,
and I am not sure what I was fighting against
was it the world
or was it myself?
still, I don’t want to be in a bubble
safely protected from all harms way
I want to grow
a story of truth, humanity, and adventure.

10.17.2022

Today

I did live today to my full potential
thanks to that, I remembered our days
days where we walked slowly together
talking about our dreams
and occasional dance we did together
in a warm haven of ours
oblivious to the world outside
smooth, soft, and slow
and when our eyes were open
crystal clear sun rays would tickle
world slowly awaken and reborn

오늘 하루 열심히 살았어요
덕분에 그대와의 좋은 기억이 났어요
세상이 어떻게 돌아가던
우리만의 아늑함 속에
느리게 추던 춤이 생각나요

10.16.2022