Stay

at the moment with embrace the full impact:
the pang of shame, regret, guilt, and whatnot;
I know that impulse — impulse to end it all —
but just don’t go yet.

don’t go walking into that darkness yet.

stay a little while.
take a deep breath with me — and
let it go — as naturally as it all should be.

notice the white dots in the dark sky —
shining brightly, traveling across universe —
to meet you at your eyes.

so stay a little while longer.
take it one step at a time.
in time, we’ll get there
and look back at it all and smile.

2.5.2023

Past

sometimes I want to grab my past
and shout: “take me back”
I want to breath the fresh crisp air,
bask under the glistening gold sunlight
I see in my dreams in my dark night
I want to feel the levity of life
as if every day was a surprise playtime
if I see my past self in the mirror
sometimes I want to grab my past
and shout: “take me back”
but it’s the darkness that stares back at me
and I, staring back at the darkness.

2.3.2023

Spontaneous

It’s my first time living my life
I don’t know what tomorrow brings
so if I am rude at times
please understand I also have shortcomings
I try and see the world as good
sharing as best as I might
hoping for better future as anyone would
daring to live life with a fight
so bear with me when I am a grump
I will sleep on it and become a better chum

12.11.2022

Way

as I walk through the beach
I see people running;
some are running towards the ocean,
while others running towards the land.
some are dancing in the sand dune,
sweat droplets sprinkling over the desert
A few, I see then laying down under the sun
receiving, waiting for something unknown
all look merry in their occupation
but I walk the walk alone
steadily towards where my heart leads along.

11.9.2022

Growing

you don’t want to be in a bubble
but you also don’t want to be in an eye of a hurricane
all criticisms, admonishment, and yelling
I know they come from a good place
and I don’t have any grudges against you
but I wonder
if I started to like myself a little less
when I am yelled at for what I have done
when I am given a silent treatment for failing
I fought my way through,
and I am not sure what I was fighting against
was it the world
or was it myself?
still, I don’t want to be in a bubble
safely protected from all harms way
I want to grow
a story of truth, humanity, and adventure.

10.17.2022