come, stay and let's talk. it's a good day to be alive
let’s promise this
even if we drift apart
let’s love.
love all things in the world.
the blue, grey, purple, orange, red sky
the ever-fleeting golden wings of luck
the unquenchable thirst to connect
let us love them all.
yes, it could get boring
yea, it could be painful
but let’s promise this:
let’s love.
5.9.2022
once in awhile, I let myself walk in the rain
letting raindrops hit against my body
it’s liberating, somehow
like a tower of sand I built as a child
shells of some kind around body starts melting
as the raindrop seeps into my heart
I wonder what it is about the rain
that brings this gravitas
5.6.2022
can we slow down a little
be gentle for a moment
instead of walking to hit each other
talking as if to run away from another
staring as if to judge the other
can we see each other just as we are
stop hiding, running, and insulting
can we just, for a moment,
acknowledge each other?
5.4.2022
I was sitting on a wooden chair
next to a wide balcony window
through which sunlight like
golden desert sand beamed softly
basking in the light I read a book
and across the table was my mom
reading her book in silence
I don’t know why
but it was the warmest moment.
5.2.2022
it feels like it’s been awhile
being like this, not pressed
to keep on doing something
for the sake of survival, for approval
perhaps this sickness is blessing in disguise
one I might have had to encounter to realize
a few hidden messages for myself
from my past self perhaps to remind myself
that there are choices in life to be made
fully appreciate the cards you have played
4.15.2022
mind is in a blurry white mist
time passes slowly but a day goes by fast
as if a cold sandbag’s on my head and freezes
train of thoughts, perhaps it’s Tylenol that has
thankfully quenched the fire of white knots
perhaps it’s the lack of sleep from last night
I can’t tell; since I lost sense of smell
what feelings I had day-to-day
except for this salty mucus with hint of sadness
I suppose I should continue to work
for nothing else seems to give me relief
4.13.2022
some describe it white fire
others, hot knife
it’ll makes you alert for awhile
but try to dodge and not fight
soon it’ll make you cry
out of misery and inescapability
if you can, avoid prolonged exposure
it may take your sleep, your thoughts, and your will.
so don’t be stubborn
just get the Tylenol
4.12.2022
fuck, I want to see you now
one last time
I don’t know when we all will die
maybe there’s a better perfecter future
but I know I want to see you
yes, I know it must be your own choice
I won’t force it so I am waiting
but fuck, I want to see you now
one last time.
before the Spring goes.
4.11.2022
fascinating things continue to surprise me:
I cannot smell scents nor discern flavors
no more perfumes, fruits, and sweets,
perhaps to do with nervous system, I think
lower back and hip had been aching
left big toe had been tingling
back kidney pain had subsided
yet coughing and congestions persist
head feels like a balloon under water
I wonder what all these mean
fascinating things continue to surprise me
4.11.2022
it’s undeniable, pain in my back flanks
dark shadows around my eyes like blanket
no matter how much I drink this water tank
I sweat profusely, yet I won’t let go this jacket
coughing become vomiting, without anything
coming out except for gluey phlegm
my mind is a slightly drunken blueberry jam
so breathing has never been so manual
when will it arrive, the end eventual?
4.10.2022
Ralph with Coffee 
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