One

Like a wall of ice against a glowing sun,

a memory deeply buried in the back of the mind emerges.

Between what is appropriate and what isn’t,

I hesitated and regurgitated my words.

And then miscommunication and misunderstanding ensued,

Until I had to straighten it out and realize

that eventually, the life converges to an end.

So let me at least just say: hi.

6.24.2025

Miracle

every day, I am hoping,
wishing for a miracle.
in the ocean of sand grains,
I yearn to become the one.
one that is picked up,
one who is loved,
one who knows the truth.
saved from calamities.

then I saw the sun.

ever-shining sun.
it was beautiful.
I am immersed in
its repetitive motions,
and all of its colors.
And so did a smile
on my lips
as I woke up again
in the morning.

9.23.2023

Memory

I remember the four seasons in that house.
in the summer, I can see the dark blue sky
through a sun window tilted diagonally.
I’d lay on the bed, reading William Matthews.
in the fall, I can pick a dried brown leaf
of a chestnut tree & make a wish
for a magical season to begin.
in the winter, I can see the back yard,
now piling up with thick, soft snow,
through kitchen window
as I wash bowls that had dumpling soups.
in the spring, I would stare at sunset,
glistening in a silent glorious opera
through budding green tree leaves
as I finish packing boxes.
the squeaking sound of wooden floors,
the table of vynil record player,
and the bottle of wine.
I remember the scent of the moment.

5.12.2023

Lasting graces

let us sweat when we can;
build the work that may go unseen
help that may not be reciprocated
though there are many sweets and beauts
I know who I am; and what I am called to:
the reason to raise the body from the ground
the joy in the hustle with fellow companions
and appreciation of small things
such as the whistle of a bird
amongst breezy autumn forest
glorious descent of graceful sun through horizon
I am humbly thankful for these graces.

9.19.2022

Dear younger self

it is alright. it is alright.
it is okay to let those tears fall.
it is okay to feel the pain
grabbing the core of your chest
and let that bawling late at night
when everyone’s asleep.
it’s alright. that’s right.
swim even when you feel numb in your limbs
slowly, slowly, your body will start warm up
and when you raise your head above water
you’ll see how glorious the red yolk of the sun is
rising through the solemn horizon
you’ll see, you’ll see.
it’s gonna be alright.

9.15.2022