Desert

it’s like walking on a desert
waiting for the rain to fall
because there’s a cloud over
the head, but it does not at all

your body is drying up quickly
yet you continue this stubbornly hopeful
walk, and you just wait for that delicacy,
a long-waited salvage beyond the doubtful

yet when the sunsets
and a drop of a bird’s dung
splashes you of its ugly end
do not be bitter, but sing a song

the song of the hunger
the song of the adventurer
the song of the survivor.

6.16.2023

Ease

it didn’t matter then,
but I see it matters now;
just how important a simple thing as
being at ease can be.

as if we had all we needed,
as if we were the only ones in the universe,
as if nothing but just this moment existed,
I remember the soft smile.

as I see the grey sky above,
as I wake up again,
I try to remember
to bring such ease to others.

6.14.2023

Start

the moment you have realized
you have far way to go to catch up
the race has started when you internalize
all the work you did does not match up
to your expected level of competency
for other to rely on you completely
it’s alright. take a deep breath.
one day at a time. all are within your reach

6.13.2023

Memory

I remember the four seasons in that house.
in the summer, I can see the dark blue sky
through a sun window tilted diagonally.
I’d lay on the bed, reading William Matthews.
in the fall, I can pick a dried brown leaf
of a chestnut tree & make a wish
for a magical season to begin.
in the winter, I can see the back yard,
now piling up with thick, soft snow,
through kitchen window
as I wash bowls that had dumpling soups.
in the spring, I would stare at sunset,
glistening in a silent glorious opera
through budding green tree leaves
as I finish packing boxes.
the squeaking sound of wooden floors,
the table of vynil record player,
and the bottle of wine.
I remember the scent of the moment.

5.12.2023