Tag: hope

Ailment

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I am speechless
out of exhaustion.

Squeezed every morsel of energy in my cell
distilled into this journey
mixed in question marks and shadows.

sometimes I fear it’s not what I imagined
when I bring it out of the oven
glazed at thousands of degrees of heat

but now is the only change
now is the only hope,
now is the testimony of past.

now, I just hope it comes out intact.
now, I just hope for its best.
now, I just hope for its safety.

10.10.2021

Apology

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yes, my emotions is like color black,
worn off of cool blue, dreamy green,
energetic orange, outrageous red,
it bears the color black like wounds.

there are blind spots to color black
I forget some people don’t have black
when I touch them, it sizzles like
a white A4 paper touching leaflets of
stove fire

yes, it’s a self-pity
yes, I need to get over it already
yes, though I do apologize to you.

10.9.2021

Guardian

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I’ll be there for you
when the whole world
gets larger and heavier
you feel smaller and slower

I’ll be there for you
when the darkness pays a visit
seeping through the gaps of barriers
sending down the chills in the air

I’ll be there for you
because I like the way you smile
because I believe in your hidden warmth
because I really enjoy our time together.

9.22.2021

Hope

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Did you realize

That you have been loved

When you thought you were utterly alone.

Memories of the past are rekindled,

Both the hurtful and joyful moments,

Brightening the dark path that lies ahead.

Yes, I have done wrong a few times,

Yes, I am still working on fixing them.

But I just want you to know

You were in my thoughts

Just as I was with you in the past.

9.18.2021

Sprint

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Awaken to the thundering roar of the sun so bright and glorious

Up on my feet, I hit the ground and keep running,

Looking only ahead, narrowing the tunnel vision,

Jump over the hoops, dodge distractions,

Wired into the muscle memory is to beat the game

Still, the thought of you lingers in my momentary thoughts,

Hoping to take a glimpse at you one day

Smiling once more under the bright glow of the sunset.

I’ll see you there

One day.

9.16.2021

Wrestling

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Grabbed his hair by his fist

He bashed his punch into his face

Again, again, and again.

Kicked him in the stomach,

Stomped him in the leg,

Rolled him over in the mud.

He still smiles,

Walks over to the cliff and rolls over a rock again.

He was tackled again by the waist

Pummeled by solid fists,

Again, again, and again.

Sweat, blood, and mucus mixed and mingled all over,

Shivering in cold, scrambling in hotness of pain,

Numbed in some parts, bleeding in some other,

He still crawls over to the cliff,

And rolls over the rock.

The rock rolls down the cliff,

Knocking on the window of a far, far away world,

So close to the eye, yet so far away

The world of his dream keeps the candle still lit in his chest.

One day.

One day more.

9.13.2021

Darkness

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I plucked out my ear plugs

Shunted my eye gaze away from my screens

Ate, drank, read, and walked in silence

Just to relish this darkness of sense

So as to appreciate you more fully

Perhaps I should tone down this desire to appreciate you as well,

In order to cleanse myself of impurities

But yes: this is who I am

And here I stand, hoping that I can jump across thousands of kilometers of distance between us

Remedy the years that we’ve been away

And dance in this darkness, together.

9.1.2021